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Okay, so I am losing my drive on this thing.  I love to write, and right now, I have more time then I could ever want....BUT I am having a hard time getting motivated.  Are you a follower?  If you are, can I ask a huge favor?  PLEASE become a follower (if you aren’t already).  I am curious to see how many people actually read this.  If you don’t want to use your real name, then make one up.  It isn’t hard.  You just have to create an account...I think.  Under followers, choose: Join this site.  You have a few other steps, but it isn’t too painful.  Please, do it for me.  

On a lighter...or maybe heavier note.... it is going to be harder than I thought to be a teacher in this state.  I graduate and walk the stage this weekend.  I am SUPER excited.  I can’t WAIT to have my own classroom.  If we still lived in Texas, I would have already had a job lined up.  I would immediately be able to teach.  All my years of studying and working so hard, would pay off.  Living in Connecticut isn’t going to make this dream easy.  First, they won’t allow me to teach until I am certified to teach in Connecticut.  When I called and talked to the Department of Education months ago, they made it sound easier.  Now that I am so close, I made the phone call yesterday.  Come to find out, I have to “apply for certification”.  In order to do this, I have to have my actual degree in hand (which doesn’t get mailed out until January 6th), and I have to have all my Texas certificates in hand (which they won’t release until I have my degree).  THEN after I send all of THAT in, I have to wait another 6-8 weeks for them to tell me what test I have to take to certify me in this state.  Blah!  With all that waiting, in the meantime I am allowed to substitute teach, but again, in Connecticut, they won’t let me do that without my degree in hand (January 6th).  SO, I have another freaking month of waiting.  

I told the Chief yesterday that I am getting stir crazy being in the house, with absolutely no life, and no friends.  Pretty sure he doesn’t get it.  He gets to go to work and be with people all day.  Me?  I am quickly sliding into the habit of sleeping all morning, only to roll out of bed and drive around.  I can’t sit in the house.  I can’t.  So what do I do with my spare time?  I get in the car and drive.  I drive wherever.  I typically have an end goal...even if it is Taco Hell for a silly little Pepsi.  I don’t think I am actually depressed, or maybe I am.  I think to myself, what the hell do I have to be depressed about?  I have a wonderful home, a wonderful husband who loves me and takes care of me, a charming Little Man (I had to choke out the word “charming”), and an all around great life.  I have so much to be thankful for.  Why do I feel like I am falling into this pit?  I think I know why.  I don’t have any friends here.  I don’t have anyone to call up and ask to go to lunch.  I don’t have anyone to go to the mall with.  So here I am in a state that is so far from everyone I know.  Everyday I call the Brunette BFF.  I look forward to talking to her each day.  I feel like it is the only inch of sanity I get.  It makes me feel like I have a connection to the outside world.  At this point, if it weren’t for her, I am not sure I would even bother climbing out of bed until the Chief and Little Man get home.  So pathetic, I know...but at this point, it is what I feel.  I am not one of those people who can just sit at home.  I can’t be a stay-at-home wife.  It isn’t me.  Tomorrow I am going to search for volunteer positions.  At this point, I would be happy to help out in a nursing home, or a kid’s group home.  Anything, but I have to do something that gets me up and moving.  Tomorrow, I start fresh.  Tomorrow I will get a plan.  Then on Saturday, I will walk the stage and be the first person in my family to graduate with a Bachelor’s Degree.  THAT is something to be excited about!